A Words For Him

I want you to know that,

I really really really miss you,

I try to smile to you everyday even I can't,

I want you to be happy even I'm not,

I'm happy if you are happy,

I'll laugh when you laugh,

I'll cry if you are sad,

I try to do something to make sure that you are always happy,

I want you to know that,

I want you to be here by my side all the time,

I want you to be the first person that i could wish 'Morning!' to everyday,

I want your perfume stick to me because its like a 'Drugs' to me,

I always hope that you could call my name even you don't want to,

I always hope you call me back to the old time even you can't,

I always want it N hope for it even i know its IMPOSSIBLE,

I always hope,

Forever......

You Know, actually Its Hurts.

You know,
This week  I woke up every morning early even I sleep at late nigth.
I take my meal correctly on time. never miss it.
I never let my phone credit empty.
I watch movie that i never think to watch.


I think I got my happiness that lost 3 years ago.


But I'm wrong. 


My insticnt was right. 
I never get the happiness again.


Know,


I really feel the pain that attacks me 3 years ago again.
But its feels more deep inside.
I'm not blaming on you.
I know that wasn't you to make its hard like this.


Maybe I'm the one who not the person exactly for you.
I'm sorry if I make you feel uncomfortable.
I doesnt care if I blind because of this tears.


You know,
I miss you 
A lot.


Thanks for everything.